Small wonders.
September 05, 2009

The first time during my stint as Incubator Extraodinaire that I truly felt PREGNANT was at my baby shower.  I looked around at the people who had come together to celebrate with us and I thought HUH, they all think there’s a baby in my belly, WHAT A COINCIDENCE.  Until my baby shower, I periodically had moments where I would wonder if I was, in fact, pregnant, or if my brain was playing an elaborate hoax on me.  And then, surrounded by family and friends, it all just clicked that I was going to have a baby.

Yesterday, a bundle of photographic prints arrived in the mail.  We won’t be keeping any in our home - they’re all for relatives - but we had to separate them into a few piles.  Looking through all of those photographs was like sifting through tangible evidence that I have a daughter.  Never mind holding the kid, I need my pictures to prove she’s mine, DAMN IT.  I never realized it before the photographs arrived, but until I held a picture of my baby, having a child just didn’t seem possible.  And then, in the middle of five piles of images, it all just clicked.  It all just felt REAL.  I am a mother now.  Wow.


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  1. By Stephanie on September 05, 2009

    Congrats, Mommy & Welcome to mommyhood! LOL!

  2. By Ola on September 05, 2009

    It took a year for it finally settle that yes, I was indeed pregnant and yes, I did actually have a baby. My daughter is now almost 4. My son is 4 months old and I am still in denial that I was pregnant and that he came from my body :)

    It’s all so overwhelming, isn’t it?

  3. By Jenna @ Newlyweds on September 06, 2009

    Yes you certainly are a mommy.  But the realization took a really long time for me also, sometimes I still think wow I have 21 month old twins, how is this even possible!

    BTW: I nominated you for a award on my blog.

  4. By on September 06, 2009

    im still waiting for that “pregnant” feeling to hit me. i guess it won’t…it’s a little late now !
    it’s just so unreal, too good, too crazy to be real. so i guess actually being a mom is even harder to get used to.
    yesterday someone called me “the lady with the baby” about 10 times before i actually realised it’s me she was referring to !

  5. By Tabitha (From Single to Married) on September 08, 2009

    Wow is right - it’s got to be truly amazing!  I’m not sure at what point it’s going to feel real to me.  Even though I’ve seen the sonograms (I’m due for the next one on Monday) and I’ve heard the heartbeat, it still doesn’t seem real.  Not sure at what point it will actually click for me, but I look forward to it.


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